Truthiness

....barely.

Mid terms suck so much. SO MUCH.

HI! :) I love y'all. I swear to god. I do. I didn't abandon you all. XD I miss reading everyone's journals (because I'm a creep?).

In apology, I bring you this: *huggles*

That is all.

They're coming to take me away, ha ha, they're coming to take me away hee hee...

That's how I feel right now, lol! And ALL I WANT TO DO IS WRIIIIIGHT.

:p

 These words were spoken by Joe Biden at the debate this past Friday -- quoted from the great William Shakespeare, which got me thinking.

The past really is prologue. The backstory is the history and prepares us for the present. But how important is the prologue? You could jump into a book without reading the prologue and understand what the story is about. You're just missing vital information. I find that in most books, there are a limited number of pages -- that means that every word that is written has a point or reason for being there, or they're just taking up precious space.

Are we connected to our past in such a way that binds us to our future? We see so often a time men and women struggling against their past to prepare for themselves a brighter and completely opposite future or present. But do our experiences in the past not shape our decisions for our future? I know that I am bound by my past in several large ways that I will never be able to let go of, or at least let go of easily.

And while I'm ranting, I need opinions on love. I'm thinking of writing something... different from what I usually write. Something that requires a lot of work. I need to know what everyone thinks about love -- does it last forever? Can it change, fade, wilt, die over time? Or if it dies, was it ever really love? Is there only one person out there for everyone? Is infidelity a weakness or a display of a lack of love? What defines love? How do we deal with it in various stages -- on the recieving end, in a give/take sense, and in a one sided (unreturned/unrequited) sense, and does that say anything about who we are? Can love change a person?

I need as many opinions as possible, please! Every thought brings me closer to my goal...

Friday's debate was ridiculous.....

McCain called Sarah Book Burning Palin a maverick. Seriously.

And he name dropped. Clinton AND Ted Kennedy. Two people who have NOTHING to do with his party....... and he's trying to make it seem like he's got the in with them or something.

And every time he said "What Obama doesn't understand" I was pissed. You can debate you opponent, but don't BELITTLE them, you asshole.

Sleep. Need sleep desperately.

A small little one shot of Jon and Stephen based off of the interview that Mira posted. :p It's really lame. But I think it's kinda maybe sorta cute.

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 When Jon entered his office he saw the heart shaped box of chocolates, and he laughed to himself at Stephen's joke from one of the interviews they had done the night of the Emmy Award ceremony.

He picked up the phone and quickly retaliated, with a smile on his face, knowing that tomorrow morning Stephen would be trying not to spit out his morning coffee when he read the note attatched to the rather impressive display of flowers that would be sitting on his desk.

Stephen did not succeed, and was thankful that it was only a small mouthful of coffee, and equally thankful that he was wearing an old shirt that had seen more than one stain before. He cracked up laughing, and a passing intern looked concerned for his sanity as she walked past his door when he picked up the card to read it again. It said, in the elegant handwriting of the florist, "Love, Don Rickles." He reached for the phonebook to search for his response, a grin plastered to his face.

When Jon called the next morning about a toss idea, neither of them mentioned their gag directly, which made it that much more fun. When they hung up, Stephen glanced at his watch and smiled. Just in time.

Three minutes after Jon put the phone down there was a knock on his door. Before he could stand to answer, an enormous teddy bear, which almost didn't make it through the door, burst in and started singing to him, congratulating his win on the past Sunday. He laughed so hard he nearly wept, because he knew it was from Colbert, and when the bear held out an oversized card with the word 'congratulations' in brilliant colours and left, Jon laughed harder. Inside, in Stephen's handwriting, were the words, "Love, Stephen Hawking."

It continued like that for nearly a month. An eagle hat (complete with wings which stuck out at the sides) from Harry Potter for Stephen. A fart machine from Gary Coleman for Jon. A scrapbook kit from George Clooney for Stephen. A teapot from Chuck Norris to Jon. A framed picture of Jeremy Priven for Stephen. A Hello Kitty stationary set for Jon. What brought the joke to a close, before it stopped being funny, was a note in Jon's handwriting, accompagnying a framed picture of both of them during the interview that had started it all, at the exact second that Colbert was pinching Jon's ass. The note read: "In all seriousness, you completely deserve your Emmy, and I'm proud of you. I hope you mop the floor in your categories next year, Now stop sending me girly gifts. The boys worry about me whenever I send them a note with a Hello Kitty letterhead. Love always, Jon"

Stephen smiled to himself, and put the picture on his desk, next to the one of his family.

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This included none of the slashy goodness that I wanted it to, simply because I felt incredibly guilty. And the sole reason for this is when they flashed to where Colbert was sitting at the Emmy's, his wife was next to him. And right next to his wife was their daughter. I can't be the only one that thinks she's the most beautiful little girl in the world. Anyways, in my head, the two of them share a bond (that you never witness going past the lines, but it happens anyway in secret), that is only kept hidden because of their families. In a different time, in a different circumstance, I imagine they think to themselves. But because of their families they are forced to hold each other at a distance, and call their love familial.

Okay so I know we've all seen like a bajillion Stephen fanvids that show him dancing etc.

I propose everyone who reads this (maybe... three people haha) to take a video of yourself with a funky dance song (ie: anything with a hella awesome beat) just dancing your craziest. In the Strangers With Candy commentary, one of them says something about how what's really funny about the dancing is that they're always dancing to the best of their ability. And I think they're awesome XD

So let's see what you can do! Post a video on youtube or whatever of you just.... dancin'! I'm-a making mine as soon as I find a good song, I don't really care if anyone does it or not, I just thought it'd be fun. ^___^ I thought about this because I dance to the songs people make the vids to anyway haha.

Anyways. Long time no post.

I started college, and it has sucked, um, all of energy out of me, which is incredibly lame if you ask me. I saw Tracy, whom I worked with in the library at my high school, on Wednesday, and also saw (my personal hero) Mr. Bartsch, who is a teacher I had and connected with more than I ever thought I would. He was pretty much my confidante, and much more active in my life than my dad or my stepdad. But he got cancer, and was out most of last year, and I saw him and talked to him in between classes he was teaching (he's back full time! improvement! though the doctors are still watching closely), and after that Tracy told me his memory's horrible now (the cancer was in his brain, but removing the tumor was supposed to get his memory back clearer, not lose it), and he can't like remember names and he can have the same convo with you a couple days in a row and not realize it.

He certainly remembered me, though. I'd say he'd be hard pressed to forget me, considering everything we've been through together. The thing was, he decided that I need proper councelling, because I was so attached to him and he didn't know what to tell me all the time. So he discussed it with me and he ended up taking me to my first (and only) councelling session and everything (very long story why it was only once). And I told him everything, and he listened and he helped me and I didn't feel so alone with him there. And the best part about this was, it wasn't one sided. He told me things too. Not everything like I did, certainly, but he told me thing he thought would help me, and if both of us were stressed we'd talk about why with one another. We talked almost every day.

And I told him on Wednesday that I was going to make an appointment to see a councellor at my school because it's free and more convenient. And I told him this because I knew it would make him happy, and proud. And on Thursday, purely by chance, I made an appointment. I walked out of one of the bajillion exits from the library and ended up at the advisor's office by coincidence. And I told myself, if I don't do this now, I just won't, and I promised him I would. So I made an appointment for Monday morning. And I'm freaking out slightly. And by slightly I mean intensely.

Wow I didn't mean for this to go so negative. Or so negative so quickly. The point is college has killed my energy level (permanently? we shall see), and I keep adding things to my plate (ie: workout buddy, working ahead in my classes, my job, etc), and now I've added this huge thing. And I'm super stressed because of Mr. Bartsch's memory being a bitch. He's such a wonderful person... he has such a brilliant mind. And then, I think, why should I be surprised he's losing his memory? The doctor's told him the headaches were an eye problem. Then it was a tumor. Oh, but the doctor's said it was probably benign. Then it was brain cancer. But at least after the operation he'd recover his lost memories....

Bastards. Doctor's lie. I don't enjoy them. And the worst part about Mr. Bartsch is that we share the same sense of humour, so whenever anything was wrong or he was being a bit melancholy, at least I could make him laugh. Now, however, I can't do a thing to help him.

I'm so stressed. I need to go to bed. Seriously, make dance videos to cheer me up, and I'll love you forever.

P.S. Mira, I sent your money like a day or two before labour day so I think the mail pick up was like three days later. So you should be getting that any day now, FYI.

P.P.S. My WS bracelet is still bitchin', and you're still the very best for sending it to me.

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That's my favourite picture of her.

Orientation was today and it was heeeeeeellllllllllllllllla lame. Seriously. It was horrible. The people weren't that helpful, and it was a complete waste of time. I didn't meet anyone, and was reminded that Booster Juice is hella expensive. Gawd.

All in all, today was a horrible day. And the key note speaker told us all to meet one, two, three people, whatever, just turn around and introduce yourself, which made me nearly have a panic attack, which is always fun.

.......gawd.

I'ma go listen to the Greg Proops...

My kitten's right next to me. And she's snoozing, and chasing mice in her sleep. Her little paws are moving. <333 to her.

Ahoy!

I'm so sleepy!!! XD I need a nap. Oh man. I'm so glad I'm off work tomorrow, I really don't know how I'd survive it.

Btw! Upside to getting the hours to requested: I get the effing hours I requested. Downside: Because of school I work every single Friday, Saturday, Sunday, from now until eternity. I'm not quitting my job because I did get the hours I need... but... they suck. :( A little better though, they're giving me more responsibility. Jitka is my night manager, and she's going to the Czech where she's from for her brother's wedding, and coming back with her boyfriend, so she's switching to day shift when she gets back. So they're going to train me to do cash out and make me the supervisor for the weekends because it's easier to do it that way for everyone. And that way one of my favourite workers can still work nights, he almost had to switch because he takes the bus home and if he does cash he doesn't get home until 1:00 a.m., and winter's coming. :p But I get him now! <33 Here he is, he's awesome, his name is Martin:
 


I was too lazy to rotate :p Anyways, he's so nice, and he's hilarious. The other day he was helping a car in drive through with children in the backseat. While the parents were concentrating on finding the exact change, Martin was making faces at the kiddos, who absolutely died with laughter, and he would put a straight face on when the parents looked to see what their kids were laughing at. He did that the whole time. He's that kinda guy, haha. <3

Anywhoozles, naptime for Sam. Oui.

P.S. MIRAAAAAAA! I mailed you your monies today XD Just FYI. MY WRISTSTRONG IS BITCHIN'!!!!!!!!!!!! <33333333333333333

I could die happy every time he picks up a guitar. Le fuck. <3333

Also! MY WRISTSTRONG BRACELET CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY AND COLBERTOBSESSED IS THUS THE MOST AMAZING PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE FOR SENDING IT TO ME.
LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.

I got my book package for school today! I also got a bookbag (green and white, holla!), and rented my locker. Now I'm good to go I think, all I have to do is pay tuition now. (.....)

I went to the school today to get everything done, and I had a coffee and a muffin at the Tim Hortons in the school. Let me say this: Tim Hortons, to me, sucks majorly. The coffee isn't very good, and the service was worse. Little things like giving me a regular blueberry muffin when I specifically asked for low fat three times makes me irritated, but all the staff was foreign, so I'm not going to be too mad, it's hard to learn a new language let alone work using it.

Ummm... what else can I say to make this post worthwhile... my schedule's pretty sweet. The earliest I go in is at 8:00 a.m. on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and I have three classes in that room as opposed to the two classes (on Monday and Wednesday) I have in the other room on another floor, so I put my locker by the first room. Though it's on the third floor, so if I want to get to it any other time I always have to go up a set of stairs unneccesarily. But hey, a little excercise never hurt anyone.

My school is really awesome. It looks very polished. The building itself, according to one of my friends, looks "so Lord of the Rings", which I guess is true? I dunno? See for yourself! http://souriyakousonsavath.com/ESW/Images/gm.jpg That's just the main building, there are three other towers exactly like that one. The building my classes are in is just to the right of the main building in that picture. :) The inside is really nice too, and the people are very friendly thus far. Though I haven't met any other students yet, orientation is September 2 so hopefully then? I'm so socially awkward, I'm really dependant on others being willing to include me. I just hate feeling like a bother to anyone. My mom said that I should be able to find more people "like me" in the courses I'm in... I was like XD the courses I'm in are boring! I know what she meant though, so it's okay. I secretly do hope that I find people similar to me in school because I really am sick of being lonely a lot. Though I'm trying to play it really aloof.

Oh! When I went into the school today I felt so so so so so awkward because I was wearing jeans, a grey sweater that my uncle made my family that says "Baxter University" on it (he's such a sweet, nerdy man, lol), and an old windbreaker my dad got as a gift at work for a million manhours work accident free. The reason I was dressed like this: I went to the dentist this morning to get fillings (MY LAST FILLINGS FTW! :D), and when I was walking home it started POURING RAINING. I was in the house for a total of five minutes finding the lock I was going to put on my locker and putting on this stuff to protect myself from the rain. I stepped outside and it was light drizzle. By the time I got on the bus it was beautiful out. So I looked so out of place, not to mention so underdressed compared to everyone else. Upside: now I know, though. A) Don't trust the weather to stay constant, and B) always overdress, because it looks better than being underdressed. But in my defence, I was a little hung over too, so I didn't feel like dressing up. :P Btw sorry for my drunk!post.

So the dentist today went okay. I say that meaning I didn't die. I did have a panic attack in the dentist chair while he was effing drilling though. He was so nice, because he's done all my dental work (extensive in the past few months), and he knows I'm scared of being in the chair and he knows that no matter how simple the procedure I'm going to cry heavily. So he was very helpful to me. Also, he's a-gonna straighten my teeths! He says that it'll take about two years with a retainer (blech), but once it's done I'll look better and I'll feel better, because I'll be able to breath better through my nose which will make it easier to stop breathing through my mouth and will stop all the bad things that involves. He also said that this means my allergies won't be so bad! :) Which I like because they're not bad right now, so this means they'll be practically gone. Woo hoo!

And I got a call from Payless as a result of my job search asking for an interview. So that's good. Until right before I took a nap, though, I couldn't feel most of my face and he even numbed my tongue to help me deal with the gagging, so I couldn't call them back haha. But I will tomorrow morning (on my way to the job I haven't told them I'm quitting yet...). Besides, it's an interview, not a defenite, I can't work there unless I have guarenteed hours and am making at least a little more than what I'm making at my job now. I feel so prissy, but that's non-negotiable because I have to save money for tuition, and I'm just not getting it where I am now. I got a raise, but only right after I turned 18, so with the added taxes they're taking out I'm actually still making less than before the raise. >__<

Anyways, I'm still pretty tired, so I'm gonna nap until The Daily Show. Adios!

YOU HEARD ME

CAPS LOCK IS CONVENIENT.

B YEEEEEEEEEEE

 I'ma go job hunting with one of my RL BFF's today. :D Hopefully I find something! We're looking to get a job together, because we rarely see each other since we graduated. I'm excited to see her today. I really hope we get something good together (or at least in the same general area).

I'm listening to Amy Sedaris' book ("I Like You"). It's hilarious. Gotta love Amy Sedaris.

That's it! :)

 MY DAD SAID THAT DEPENDING ON WHERE I GET IT, HE MIGHT BUY ME A TATTOO. WOO!

I didn't tell him what I had planned because it was brought up at his birthday dinner at a restaurant with my whole family, and they think I'm lame XD But he'd totally love my idea, I'm going to talk to him tomorrow sometime about it. :D

I haven't posted in a while because work has been sucking my soul away. :( It's very unfortunate. Anyways, all I have to do tomorrow is some light housework, then me and my brother have the house to ourselves for a week while they're at my uncle's wedding back home. My mom is all "NO PARTIES!", But I know there will be one. Because there always is when they go out of town, because my brother always throws one.

Speaking of Chris! Chris and I are plotting... we're going to backpack across Europe when I get out of school. ^_______^ I'm so excited!!! We're trying to figure out when. I graduate April 26, 2010, and he wants to go to Oktoberfest. So we were thinking the summer, but if the falls are mild (as I assume they are in Europe, generally), then I think I'll make Chris' vacation and tell him to plan to be gone for September and October. :) I don't care, I just want good weather and a tonne of fun! <333 Europe! I've been there once, technically, though it was just the smallest sliver of France called St. Pierre et I can't spell the next word XD But I loved it!

Hee hee. I'm so excited! Just me and my brother would be amazing, no one else ruining our trip. That's going to be so awesome!

I haven 't got much time, so I'll make this quick.

I might get a tattoo. I want to know from tattoo getters how much it hurts.

I also have a request for anyone awesome: I'm trying to get a large, clear image of the panther tattoo Colbert has on his back in Strangers With Candy (Episode title: Who Want's Cake), and also on his arm in the TCR episode where they do Guitarmaggedon. The goal was to do something related to Colbert that wasn't huge or all that detailed (ouch), and that wasn't totally obviouse so that people won't think I'm a freak getting a tattoo of a television personality on my leg. Then I would know but everyone else wouldn't have to ;)

So if anyone can find me a good clear image, 300xwhatever would be ideal, but whatever you can find that a tattoo artist could see perfectly would be SWEET. The only ones I can find online are either raelly small (sadface), or of a vicious panther, and I want the one he has exactly. ^___^

It's kina expensive so I was gonna ask my dad if he'd buy it for me because I'm awesome/for Christmas. Wouldn't that be kick-ass??

 My cat is like the sun.

No matter where the hell I put her, she ends up in the middle of the bed taking up all the space, stretched out. The sun part: I NEVER SEE HER MOVE. And yet she ends up in the middle, right in my way.

Speaking of sun. That makes me think of Noblet reciting that poem in that Strangers of Candy episode that centered around Sarah Blank's drinking problem. Holla, Deborah Rush. 

I got my teeth cleaned this morning. Here's the scoop on that: I FUCKING HATE THE DENTIST. Because when I was a young'un a very horrible dentist pulled a tooth despite my telling him I CAN FEEL IT. So I never went back. Ten years later, it started to hurt when I chewed certain things in certain places. Then it started hurting all the time for no reason. So I swallowed my pride and went to the dentist, and was ordered by the dentist to come back for a long time. And the only reason I listened was because he's the best dentist in the city.

So, I got fillings in my bottom right teeth. Then my bottom left. Then my top left. And next week, my top right. Last time was so bad, it hurt so much that I didn't open my mouth all the way and got cut twice with the drill on my lip because of it. When he pulled my wisdom teeth a couple of weeks ago, I was so paranoid because of my fear of dentists that I the second I was out (side note! I went under anesthesia because one minute into my first bit of fillings, he said, and I quote, "............I think we'll put you out for the wisdom teeth") I started screaming and moaning in my sleep. To the point where someone in the waiting room left and didn't come back. To the point where one of the receptionists cried.

So I always bawl in the dentist chair during my fillings, even if I try not to. And I went into the dentist today and told myself don't worry, calm down, it's only a cleaning. But I ended up crying anyway, it was so pathetic. And I felt especially bad because she was in training.

Also, my appointment was at 10:40 this morning, and despite my alarm clocks I woke up at 10:20. And I had to walk there. So I was like "...ningodinodmmgns.......OHMYGAWD" and ran around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get there on time. I made it five minutes early (even got to brush my teeth), and the dentist wasn't ready for me until 10:45. :p So I got to read some of my book. 

Also, my dad is home. He hasn't been home in like a month, or more, he's been working overtime. My parents are getting along. That's good right now, but probably bad in the long run that they can only get along if he's been gone for a month and a half-ish.

School starts September 3! Orientation September 2! THANK GOD FOR LENIENT PARENTS WHO DON'T CARE IF I'M A COUPLE HUNDRED SHORT ON MY HALF OF THE TUITION. <333333333333333333333333333 TO MY MOTHER.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHMYGOD! THIS IS HILARIOUS!!!!!!! FUCK! HILARIOUS!

EFFING INDIA! FUNNY! I heard on the radio and read in the paper today that they released a ringtone about condoms to make the word more socially acceptable so that less people contract AIDS, and the song is FUCKING HILARIOUS!

AHAHAHAHAAHAHA. I laughed so hard I cried when I heard it.

LISTEN TO IT!

http://www.labnol.org/home/health/download-bbc-condom-mp3-ringtone/4235/

LISTEEEEEEEEEN! XDDDDDD

Yes, that epidsode was re-ran today XD I hate it when Colbert takes vacations/does stuff that makes him not work :p Though I understand, I read an interview where he said, "I'm tired all the time." And hell, these re-runs are still hilarious. Hee hee.

And back to WLIIA reruns on YouTube... 

La la la....

That is all! <3