User Profile

Hello.

I am someone who is sick of being known
Who is looking to blend in
And be accepted just as she is --
Without the background and the stories
Can I be loved anyway?
I've joined a network I'm passionate in
I guess now we play the waiting game.


I am very honest in every respect. I tell people what they want to know, unless one of my friends has asked me to keep it a secret. I don't cheat, and I try never to lie. My best friends are online, and they know everything about me, but I will not tell any of them about this LiveJournal, because that would defeat the purpose of being me (free from the steriotypes and other such unpleasentries I have unwillingly forced upon myself)and being free to do so.

It kills me to keep this a secret from three of them. And especially one, who would understand this perfectly. But I'm trying this, so I try not to let the guilt eat me. I try to rationalize this off as stupid, but I know it's not to me. It's something huge inside of me that I hope will not fail me.

I told you I was honest.

Now I guess I should mention more about me and not why I'm here.

I'm legally an adult now in my city - but that doesn't mean I'm too old to do this:

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I am obsessed to a probably unhealthy degree with Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart. Though mostly Stephen Colbert.

I am a procrastinating cat-loving readaholic who can't stop listening to/watching comedy. That's just who I am. I take weird pictures like these:

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I think my family is of the collective opinion that I am strange. I like frog's legs and escargot, and I love being outside but hate bugs. I am a lover and a pacifist, and severely sleep deprived. I always apologize, even if it's not my fault, even if it's just for being me. I can't sing to save my life, but I love doing it anyway.

If I could be any animal in the afterlife, I would be a turtle. They're slow, they protect themselves, and they're independant yet adorable. FYI: I've always wanted a turtle. My brother once owned one. No fair.

I'm a democrat, but that doesn't mean I stand for everything they do. I love politics and humanity issues, etc. I love it all. I am only scared to write about it for fear of getting it wrong. Isn't that stupid? I don't know. I think so. If my heart was at all in sync with my head, I wouldn't care, but they rarely run together. I live through my heart, which has been broken quite a few times, and I look to the same person who did the damage to repair it. My breath is held and my hopes are high, and I know that's wrong but I can't bring myself to care.

My favourite food is broccoli. And I love seafood (except breaded things and muscles [bleh]), and I rarely eat buns with hot dogs and hamburgers unless in a restaurant. I don't like salad dressing in general, and I speak rusty french. My dreams: write a few novels, become filthy stinking rich, and go wherever a please. France, New York, Portugal, Egypt, Luxembourg, ANYWHERE! Anywhere but here!

And that, in a nutshell..... is me.

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